Learning

Where did that feeling go?
it was so strong and certain
to be with you, no other
to know you, to discover
a moral man, my lover
a thinker and a fighter
to laugh with you all night
to know that it was right.

two unsuspecting virgins
we were naive, there were serpents
and they said it would be worth it.
but was it? now I wonder.

I think about it often, how we made love.
none of that heartless grinding
we looked in each other's eyes
and everything else faded.
holding, kissing crying.
did i not see we were dying?
did i miss your eyes get older
or an innocence get colder?

Although i never doubted
but not even nearly planned
who ever plans to love a man
who will hold her in his hand
and whose eyes become her world?
I gave to you a part of me
i never thought i'd share.
you showed me depths i didn't know i had
to which i'd care.
and something tells me
it was worth it.

for all the sacrifice.
those things that just had to suffice.
for the stab of love erased
that feeling we've misplaced
the heart break on your face.
for the pain of learning, growing.
it's so strange now
finally knowing.

then a mourning face turns wry now
you and I
we learned to fly
now with clipped wings, the memory's still strong.
I'm thinking that's what mattered all along.
the memories of locking eyes
and highest highs
and you all night
and what went right
will outlast what went wrong.

Isn't that what life is anyhow?
there's some you hate and some you love
grains are all the shore's made of.
so you life for those moments that alter your being
so few
so far in between.
but with you
i learned they're real.

as i sit here with you on my mind
i smile, sigh and then decide
it's been absolutely worth it.
for the greatest kind of souvenirs
outlasting pain
enduring tears
remember, with such grateful tears
the grace of love
that brought you here.
I thank God for how I loved you.

no golden, rich rewards to show
but you and I
now we both know
how love can reach such glorious heights
depth of passion in the night
how in introduced a whole new fright
but i wouldn't undo
a second
with
you.