Confusion

I hate hearing you say those words now, "I love you"
It doesn't feel the same way now that it used to
"I love you too" are words forced across my lips in obligation
This addiction has been beaten to the fullest degree
Realization has come that there will be no you and me
So why do I even listen to what you have to say?
If I didn't answer your phone calls would I really be ok?
Have my feelings really faded or do I still care?
Has the fire diminished or is the love still there?
Why can't I move on? What the hell is holding me back?
None of this makes sense, all I see is pitch black
Why are you doing this to me? I don't understand
I think you break my heart just because you can
I hate you and I hate what you're doing to me
After all this time you can still rip me apart so beautifully
Don't call me and don't say "I love you"
And don't pretend you understand cuz you have no clue!
Don't taunt me, please, just let me let go
When you see me, look the other way, don't even say hello
Maybe it hurts when you say "I love you" cuz I know you don't
I wish you would stop lying but I know you won't
Why am I wasting time thinking about it?
I dont' even want to be writing about this shit!
Please don't say I love you ever again
Please just give up, for once just let me win
But your voice sounds so sweet when those words come out
My eyes open wide, realizing once again, I still love you without a doubt