Looking Deep

I am a scared little girl
Reliving hiding away in the closet
Now hiding from pain
A river with no direction
Not knowing which way to flow
I have never been very pretty nor pleasing to the eye
But always aiming to please and trying to be just right
I am damaged goods, torn and tattered
Worthy only of disposal
A newborn baby scared to open my eyes
Eager to learn, but timid of going into the unknown
I am fearful of being let down and dread letting down others
Pure, but yet tainted
Anxious about my future
Restrained by my past
I sometimes feel so innocent, almost ignorant
Neglected, used, and battered
I am naive
I am a scared little girl