Some would say I fell to fast for the man I love right now, but how could I not when he knows that love is about patience and understanding. And he can say I love you with a full heart.
Heres my story, it may be a long one but worth it, and trust me on this, NEVER come to love two soldiers at once it is not a good thing, especially if they are brothers(very close bestfriends)
There was Rhett, he was simple and sweet to me, being honest about everything incapable of lies, this was a good trait till he told all the ugly truths but refused to see his own, I feel in love with him, and these feelings I had for him where strong.
Then there is Chris, a sweetheart and my bestfriend. He is Rhett's brother, their closer then kin.
Nothing should of happened and I was sure it never would. But I started feeling for Chris against everything I understood.
When I had to choose I chose Rhett instead, I had talked to him longer and something inside me told me I should.I ignored my heart and used logic instead, and for many months I felt a dread I didn't know that I was capable to have.
Rhett was happy, he never knew me and Chris talked like we did. He had no clue that his brother had told me that he loved me before I was with him.
Chris was sad beyond any belief, I talked him out of killing himself because of little ol me, I told him he was my friend no matter what and that I understood what it felt like not to get the one I want, he wouldn't listen he said I didn't know how he hurt and I hurt right along with him,
I remember my very words as I sit here reminiscing
"How do you think I feel that I had to choose between two brothers? I might of made the wrong choice and if I did I will always be miserable because I would never have another chance."
The months went on and I was happy with Rhett yet after he came home on leave I still felt a little empty, But I tried to stray from those thoughts.
I thought it was because of a gap left by a former boyfriend, but that gap got wider every time I thought of Chris when I was with Rhett.
I said I loved Rhett, and I truly did then.
I lost Chris's number and his address too by accident, and it killed me not to be able to talk to my best guy friend.
I begged Rhett for it, telling him I liked to be close to his friends who where also mine, and at the same time Chris was searching for mine.
There was no hope left, till Rhett talked to Chris, he got my number and soon after hanging up with Rhett one night because of a bad talk saying "me and him were to deep in this for being so young"
I got a call from Chris not a second to soon.
I could quit smiling, even though I had a bad day, I felt happy even after Rhett made me feel like nothing, somehow I felt strangely complete..
That night Chris feel for me hard, but he wouldn't act out on these feelings, he knows that I'm loyal to all my boyfriends.
As he sat in Germany and I sat in Texas, both our minds raced to a possibility's that we could be together was 1 in a million, and that we couldn't do it.
But fighting to keep Rhett got harder and harder, till I felt tired beyond any tired.
I gave up and we ended it, he didn't want a girlfriend while he was in Iraq,
and as I cried because he didn't both to fight to keep me, thats when Chris was right there for me at the right moment.
He was able to get a smile on my tear stained face when I thought nothing could.
Not even a breath a sigh or a moment after I said I "give up" to Rhett and Chris went to hold me together even though I was falling apart.
That was the moment that I fell the deepest for Christopher.
He knows that now.
And I'm still falling deeper, and I hope I never stop falling for Chris, for many years to follow.
I love you sweetheart never forget that I'm always here as a friend if not your lover.
And now I say with a full heart I love you Chris!
All this happened over the course of 1 year, I thought I was pregnant with Rhett's child (I'm not)and now me and Chris are engaged to each other. (A long engagement)
