I Hate It But I Love It

The knife is my best friend,
The friend I love to hate,
It's with me until the very end,
We were brought together by fate.

I hate it but I love it,
I hate that it's so hard to explain,
I hate that it's hard for you to understand,
But it takes away the pain.

I hate that I have nothing else to turn to,
Nothing but a knife,
I hate that this is what gets me through,
What does that say about my life?

I love the way the blade appears,
Slicing through my skin,
I love watching all the tears,
I love that it puts my head into a spin.

I hate the way I love it,
I love the way I hate it,
But still I can't get over it,
So I still watch as my wrists I slit.