I try so hard to feel happy
I try to push every other emotion to the back of my head
I try to ignore them and act like I don't care
You are everything to me
I want to be with you
I want to spend my time with you.
I have tried to tell you that.
but like another friend I'm done waiting
I want to move on
I want to like someone who wants nothing other in this world than to be with me
I want someone to be in love with me like I love you
But I try to hide it
I don't want you to hurt me again
Yo admitted to hurting me so
many times before
you said you wanted to make it up to me
but in reality your hurting me even more by making me wait...
I try to act like I'm not waiting
I try to act like I don't want to brake down and cry
You are frikken EVERYTHING to me
you don't even see it
People even know you mean the world to me
They can see it
WHY cant you
You said you have liked me for the past couple of weeks..
than why do i feel so alone..
I'm done waiting...
Even though apart of me will wait forever...
in rain
in snow
in the heat
in the cold
I will wait...
But I will move on...
sooner or later
I can learn to really push you to the back of my head..
I just don't understand...why everything has to hurt...
I broke down in class today..
I don't know why..
Luckily learning from someone who used to be close to me
I hid it..
I shoved it to the back of my head and saved it for later...
I just want to push you completely out of my
life..
out of my head...
but I know
a little bit of you will always be apart of me...
