Break up

I won't take all your bullshit and I'll just ignore the lies.
Because I'm sick of feeling used and hiding behind your desires.
Lighting up one after another, trying to smoke out the enemy.
As i crumble on the floor in a pile of forgotten misery.

And when the lights go out tonight,
I'll lie alone and think of memories.
Will you be sleeping with that new girl of yours?
Or will you be dreaming of me?

And the memories are fading now,
With our laughter, oh so fast.
Tears will cover shattered hearts,
And things we thought would last.

Standing outside my window,
Swinging on my front porch at night.
Throwing rocks and writing poems until i turn out the light.

I found a rose inside my locker,
And some petals on the floor.
But they grew dark and withered
Like the ones i found before.

I'm giving up and moving on now.
I can't take the pain from lies.
The tears are dripping to the floor,
Taking with them, my disguise.
The war paint that i coat so thick is here for all to see.
It lies there in a puddle of my insecurity.
I've never failed to underwhelm the people surrounding me.
What was so different about you and what sparked your curiosity?

Would it be the same if i were sane?
Would it feel the way it does?
Would the sparkle in your eyes still stay,
If i were all there was?

If I'm lying to you, tell me.
Because you always knew the truth.
It's never hard to find the likes of a lost and forgotten youth.