Bound To Pain

**i wrote this back in October, but never put it on here for sum reason..but here it is!**

I try not to give in to the temptation
When you tell me to leave and never come back;
I try to pretend you still love me.

I cry when I look at what I've done
Because You've ignored me once again;
I cry but you still don't seem to notice.

It hurts at night when I make another scar
Because you've left me alone again to suffer this pain;
It hurts when you tell me you hate me.

I turn my face when I see my reflection
Because it reminds me that I don't belong;
I turn away in disbelief every time you try to lie and say you love me when you don't.

I dream of not having to suffer
Because the importance of my existence is very little;
I dream of a day I'll wake up and this will all be over.

I think of any other way to escape the pain I feel inside
Because I don't want to make another mark of unhappiness;
I think of another way out of this mess I was born into.

It gets harder to live as the days go by
Because I know it'll only get worse;
It gets harder to know that the thoughts and temptations will only continue.

I wonder if anything would have changed
If I could have just turned away the want to cause myself more pain;
I wonder how many people will notice me now that I'm gone.