Severed Soul

I lay in bed
Deep in thought
Wishing for a new life
One that wouldn't have to be fought

People shove me aside
Curse my name
I then begin to think
Who is it to blame?

I wanted so bad
To be someone different
My heart is broken
My spirit is absent

Then one day
I met someone new
Who didn't tease or hurt
Who's heart was true

He brought out my heart
Found my spirit
I dwelled no more
A future was now writ

Hours we spent together
Just laughing and joking
We became such good friends
I knew he'd never be abandoning

And then one day
I was hurt so bad
Physically and emotionally
by my own dad

I never did tell my new friend
For fear of what might happen
I guess you could say
I'm not always open

But when he did find out
He did not press me
Instead waited for that day
When I could tell him openly

Then one night
We went to a dance
At first I was scared
But he gave me reassurance

When I looked into his eyes
I looked down with a blush
I knew by then
I was close to a crush

He clued me in
That he loved me too
Still I wasn't sure
But my heart flew

Years went by
He's still a good friend
Even though we're alittle distant
We would have no end

But I guess he didn't believe it
For one day he was gone
I was confused
And became withdrawn

When I went to see him
He wasn't the same
His eyes were mean and cold
Was this a game?

He no longer wanted me around
I couldn't figure out why
I couldn't get him back
No matter how hard I would try

So I am here
But now feeling worse
I was once in love
And now I'm in a curse

Now every night
I cry; feeling so ill
And wait for that day
When my blood will spill

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