Why Did I Do It Again?

Why did I start this up again?
Am I crazy? Am I worn?
What happened to my promise?
Has my heart again been torn?

I didn't even mean to
I just did it again
I know it was wrong...
But that's just the way it has been!

Why didn't I stop myself?
It just was all too strange
I swore I'd never do it again
Why did my feelings change?

I hate myself for doing it
It's such a stupid thing
My heart is just so sad
And it begins to sing

It's such a weird thing
I just can't explain
It's like you're doing okay
And then you feel the rain

It beats down on you hard
You can never get away
So then you do this thing
Because you have nothing else to say

I've done a stupid thing
And I can't tell anyone
No one can know
Or then I would be done

I'd get yelled at and talked to
And soon I'd withdraw from all
Because of all the grief
All of my life would fall