Broken

I don't love him, he's not my friend
at least that's what I think
I try so hard not to love him
but I ache for just one wink.

I can't let myself know this
I'll fall into his trap
But I'm lost in his eyes
so to get to his heart I'll have to follow a map.

I say I hate him
but it's really me who I despise
I just wish I wouldn't be told
anymore of his lies.

I can't love him
how can I when all I feel is hurt
He picks me up when I'm feeling down
but then chucks me in the dirt.

I know I don't love him
I just wish that he'd go away
But at the same time I love him
and I want him here to stay.

I feel nothing for him anymore
not love or like or hate
But I love him and always will
I guess I'll just have to wait.

But I'll wait here and wish for him
each and every day
Until then I'll be here,
wanting my feelings to go away

© ShatteredAngel 2005