It doesnt really matter now, why you said you were leaving me.
I know now that all along you were just decieving me.
But even every lie that brought tears to my eye
Doesnt matter anymore. I guess i shut the door.
The door to all the pain, that made me go insane.
The thoughts of kissing in the rain, it was all in vein.
For a while i thought you meant it and that it really was my fault.
For a while i thought you were really gonna call.
You kept taking me back, making me think we really had it.
Refusing the truth became my favorite habbit.
I'd sit and play our songs, singing and crying along.
I'll never forget the first time you sang it to me.
Your familiar voice whispering the words comfortably.
And even now at times, I'll sit and play the same lines.
But now it doesnt make me sad, or make me want you back.
I guess through all my pain, i finally see the light.
And surprisingly its not your my reflection in your eyes.
When we say our 2 words to eachother
I dont think of you as my lover.
Your just the first guy I ever shared myself to.
Your just my first expirience of learning the real truth.
And even though I dont know if you honestly cared.
I'm no longer scared!
