Looking Back And Learning Nothing

Of all the mistakes I ever made
There was only one I wished to never make again
I didn't care how many lies I told
Or how many people's hearts I stole
As long as I never fell in love with someone again

You walked into my life
As I made this promise
I never dreamed that you would break me

I never thought of you as anything other than a friend
We were close, became closer
Quicker than anyone else I had met, but still I did not realise
Just how I felt; my heart kept my promise.
I would sometimes think about you
But I never thought anything of it
It seemed normal.
I feel like I am trying to defend myself
But I know that I am a fool, a fool for love
I am nothing but a fool
For letting it come to our friendship and change it forever.

If love is too strong a word, then fine,
But it rolls off the tongue like a waterfall
It rushes from my mouth before I can catch it
And then I have said it, even though
I am not in love with you.
I am not in love with you.
Sometimes my mind believes things that aren't true
So I am telling myself this as much as you.
Because I think back to the look in your eyes
As our heads touched, the pain I saw teared mine.
And I wanted our lips to touch
As if this could ease it
I wanted to take away your suffering with a kiss.

You walked into my life
And I broke my promise
So please don't walk away and break me.

29-11-05