Smiling Eyes

I go on
day by day
I live it out
I count them on
1 day 2 days 3 days 4
how many more
must it be like this
when i taste that disgusting kiss
feel his hot breath on my mouth
i don't want to but i do
and i hate him for it too
each day i awake laughing, with smiling eyes
pretending I'm ok
but really I'm dying inside
with each day
i feel more distant
more alone, more afraid
with each day my life begins to fade
but my smiling eyes
tell those simple lies
that I'm just fine