This whole time

This whole time i kept it going, let it take me over, i never let myself recover. but now that i can see who you really were, and why so many people you dont even know about had so much to say about you. this whole time you made it seem like you were winning, but you do know that you lost? you should, you made this game up.?. this whole time when i had these dreams, and i knew i would die, and waste my whole life for you, makes me the dumbest person i'll ever know. this whole time was what it took to put the ring away, the hoody, and my soul. you stabbed my heart . poor baby little Corie, no more. call me a bit** call em a who**, spread what ever rumor suits you. i no longer hurt. this whole time is all it took to show me who i should be... this whole time.... ???