A change of ways

I often find myself lying awake...
staring at the ceiling
missing you feeling
wishing that your dealing with this for once and for all...
because as much pain as you caused me...
i still dont want you falling...
i would feel as if it were my fault
and it probably would be in the end
but whatever you do
dont take that risk
if you do take that fall
you will be greatly missed
because believe it or not
people in this world do care for a person that feels like he has no feeling and meaning
if that person shows his true feelings...people would accept him...
everyone would like you
just stop being evil and putting on your show
and as much as i hate to admit it
you could be a good friend
just give it up
if you want friends like you claim
then make yourself a new name...
and change your ways...