Who i was

A shattered dream
a broken heart
a guile world
tears me apart
and through this
i think of her
i see that smile
her eyes unsure
I'm taken back
to those times
of innocent games
and reading her rhymes
back to the days
when she thought of me
and had so many ways
to let her words free
maybe I'm not
the guy that i was
a little less "hot"
a bit harder to love?
i don't know what it is
but it pulls me apart
it turns my thoughts crimson
and blackens my heart
so take a step back
and watch me fade
watch me swallow my pride
and put on this facade
watch me transform
into the guy that she loves
forget all my "norms"
and be who i was