Forgivness to boys who break our hearts

Ever like someone so much you will forgive them for everything they do even if it means another crack in you heart. And when you hear about what he has done it hurts like a knife to the heart. You guys arent in a relationship so its not like you can say anything to him about it, and you wonder if you were if he were to flip or accept it. If you were to even tell him it would be all weird around you guys. doesnt mean he would stop he would just try harder to keep it a secret.and this is what it comes down to. your into deep to get your self out you have gone to far just to quit and even though your putting your self in this mess it hurts to much to let him go or pull out now.and either way you go your hearts going to be broken tears are going to fall and you are going to regret it whether it be the i should have done or i shouldnt have done it.so this is where you are going to learn a lesson to do it again or to not do it again that is the question?.....