Thoughts of the heart

How is it you fight for them to disappear once there gone you miss them the most. As now you find your self unable to move on as you've thought of them all night long.
As you believed once your asleep in another dream the memories of them would fade away but their touch is all you feel fresh in your mind as you slowly miss there hand across your face for the one you thought would cause you tears gave you a million reasons to smile but here you lay writing about the one you could've had and as the night goes on you can expect to find them in your dreams as you wish those sweat dreams were true for only if you knew the one you wanted to hate was the one you were soon going to love. and here i am alone with out you for my fear over took my heart but even though your gone i still find time to think of only you. As i drive my self crazy for i can't help but want your touch And your love...

Restless ready to give up for here i am still alone as i should know I'll always be mint to know for i fight so strong but yet so weak how i know my will can over come this all in time for when my minds set I'll fight till my death as those who think I'm weak you best rethink your thoughts of me for when the battles with my self there is trouble in-store for me I will not give so easily till I've won but just to let those know when i say i love someone that love is true no games no lies straight from the heart its only you and me no one else insight as i learn to love you more in time with the fear of even when your gone I'll love you still. is what shatters me the most but in time I'm sure I'll heal for only one person knows whats mint for me but till the time comes along I'll for ever be waiting for that happy ending where my tears aren't of pain but of having whats real to me and nothing comes as real as what you can give me...

Looking back at everything I've lost i thought was mint for me but what a shame it was i didn't realize they weren't ever mint for me. As i slowly start to believe once more that theres nothing mint for me, You set and ask if I'm alright i hide for I'm truly terrified as i say that I'm only scared.when I'm truly terrified that I'm losing the greatest thing i ever knew. For i set in the shadows waiting for what i know is right for me. Scared I'll never have that second chance for once more i set in a restless nights dream of you and i. As time has past me by i realize what we had was to perfect as in result i had broken your heart as i didn't realize i was breaking my own. But to my surprise I'm not alone in the belief of us. As yet i stay hidden in the darkness waiting for whats always been right for me. As you haven't seen that your my light as you gave me all that was right and yet i feel I'm truly going to suffer as i rip my self piece by piece apart for what i did wrong but at the time i thought was truly right. But now i lay here waiting for the memories to fade away in time i can't help but remember what was once so great and the only thing i grew to know that wasn't a lie. As I've tried to forget but my memories haunt me in my dreams of you and i as i can't help but wonder whats wrong with me. For this i feel is now a battle with my self more then just with you. But how i find the time to still want to love you when i know now perhaps i shouldn't for its such a fight that hurts me...