Tried and failed

I cut once,
But never again,
Thats what i said,
To my best friend...

But it didnt last long,
i wasnt able to hack it,
for i am no longer strong...

I took that sharp razor,
that one id used before,
which sliced my wrist like a laser,
where none of my friends saw...

I dont want them to be sad,
worry, be upset coz of me,
im not a worthy friend, id be glad,
glad if i were to be gone, dont u see?

This life i have been given,
is dragging me down,
the tears have stopped pouring,
for there\'s enough for me to drown,

this water isn't normal,
this life has turned it red,
for the water has been formed,
from the sadness in which i bled...

I cut once,
but i thought never again,
i promised to myself and my friends,
but the only path,
that could clear my head,
everytime my life went wrong,
was to cut even deeper, thats what i do instead.

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