Nervosa

No one knows the extent
Of the pain I've put myself through
Starving for Perfection
I've learnt every trick in the book

But however hard I try
And people tell me that I'm slim
I just can't see what they're seeing
And this endless cycle begins

I'm waiting for the day that I will
But any hope that's left inside
Has withered/battered/shriveled up
Has retreated gone and died

Around people I'm be more structured
Every move, plotted before hand
And you'll never see, if you looked deep enough
A life more meticulously planned

I keep up this facade
So all who see me think
That I'm strong, confident and happy
Who never needs to be comforted

That whenever trouble come my way
I'd hold my head up high
When really all I want, is to go to sleep-
Forever, where there's no need to lie

This is why I'll never tell you
You couldn't understand or comprehend
Or worse you'd try to take away
The only thing that gives me strength