My shining temptation

**I know its kinda long but please read and comment**

All in one moment
You broke down my wall
In one single night
I took my greatest fall

As I lay in bed
My eyes start to burn
I have to deal with this alone
I've run out of places to turn

For every door I try to open
A deadlock found on the other side
Stopped me from starting off new
I have run out of corners to hide

I lean over to turn out the light
But something catches my eye
Its shining so bright is blinds me
When I see, I let out a sigh

This shiny little razor blade
That lay so close to me
Is drawing me in closer and closer
Its trying to set me free

With this shining temptation
I could end it all today
Take away the pain, the tears the hate
And end this disarray

As I go to reach for it
To say my final good-byes
My heart begins to ache
And I begin to cry

I think of my friends who did this
who cut and it ruined their lives
It hurt me to see them like that
But they healed with the tick of time

I think of the man I love the most
My angel from up above
The person who always makes me laugh
the wings to my snow white dove

I think of my family
And how much they truly care
They helped me through my hardest times
Still, do I do it? do I dare?

I reach over and pick it up
I hold it in my hand
I see my reflection in the steel
There's been a change in plans

For a moment the thought was perfect
I thought that no one would mind
That I would be just another
Another fallen angel left behind

Even though this shiny temptation
That lay so close to me
It seemed to perfect it felt so right
I just realized it wasn't for me

I put it in the back of my drawer
I lean over to turn out my light
I say my prayers and wipe my tears
And I quietly whisper "good night..."