Why?

You think Ive stopped
When Ive only begun
I love that feeling
When I'm in control
When I hold that piece of glass
And pressing it down upon my arms
You think its wrong
But what would u know
Cause the anger and pain
That I feel inside
Comes from you
And everyone else who looks down upon it

I'm sick of hearing that crying isn'tâ??t a weakness
What I do is not a weakness
Its to hide from everything else
Stepping in a world where there are so many like me
And yet you call me the names

Teasing me all the time
Never did help
It made my problems worse
For I trusted u
And you took and ran
You stepped over the line
And now I shall never trust again

You say it hurts you when I cut
But how can u feel the pain that I feel
This pain that tears me up
Every second of the day
You tell me you love me
Then why do u treat me like this
Like iI'mnothing to this world
And me leaving it wwouldn't??t do anything

You told me that if I killed myself
You wowouldn't?t come to my funeral
My suicide would stand for so many things
That its okaokay die
But its not
Some people canâ??t handle life
And Im jI'mt one of them

Im nI'm a poet
Im nI'm a writer
Im nI'm a painter
Im nI'm anything
So tell me
Why do I need to live?