Disappear

Bleeding from cuts made by my best friend,
The blade's cool touch makes my pain end.
Alone and quiet in the dead of night,
Constantly with myself I have to fight.
Trying to cut right through my pain,
I sometimes feel out of control and insane.
Voices calling to me in my head,
Telling me the world would be better if I was dead.
My heart is black; I can no longer feel,
My soul filled with wounds that will never heal.
Darkness is consuming me now,
I want to say good-bye but I don't know how.
Crimson blood running down my arm,
For so long I've turned to self-harm.
Turned to it when I just want to die,
When my life is so screwed up and I lie.
Digging so deep into my pain,
My tears are hidden by darkened rain.
Black tears of hatred, tears of distress,
I don't know how my life became such a mess.
On the outside my eyes shine, my lips are smiling,
But inside my heart's bleeding, my soul is dying.
Failing everyday, I can't do anything right,
I want to disappear from the world's sight.