That Girl Was Me

This is the happiest Ive been for such a long time,
i swear in this world being happy or in love is such a crime,
almost losing you,
was the closest to losing me too,
it tore my world apart,
when you announced you wanted to depart,
I cried and cried for just so long,
my heart.. collapsing no longer strong,

A few days later you told me you were sorry,
that you caused me so much worry,
I made you cry,
my question was why,
he replied it was the thought of not having you in my life,
its funny really..how quickly i turned back to my knife,

knowing we were together again,
amazingly clears all of my pain,
I'm so happy to have everything good happening around me,
I have my glow back as everyone can see,

Shattered my world into a thousand miseries once again,
Here I write my last letter to you in pen,
saying one thing, then to do another,
parting me away from my lover,
screaming at me in the middle of the room,
making me run home crying in the afternoon,
i don't think you realize how much this affects me,
I may look OK, or as you can see,
But thats only as far as skin deep,
The only time i feel OK is in my sleep,

drop this letter onto my bed,
on the envelope it said,
To my parents and teachers,
For once you'll be happy, to see my special feature,
The one sign of pain I'll serve to you on a plate,
is my confession of my tear being late,
i should've told you long ago,
my feelings of hatred for you continue to grow,
look in my closet and what will you see?
a beautiful girl hanging..
oh wait...she was me..