Mother

I stare at you with tears in my eyes
All that is heard are my silent cries
"What are you waiting for?" I scream and yell
You raise a fist, I know this too well

My hearts racing faster
My eyes are drowning
I cough and splutter
All because of my mother

I look at home videos
From when I was three
You're smiling, You're happy
When you still loved me

I don't know why I'm filled with guilt
When it was always mine who's tears were spilt

I hate this feeling
I'm sick in my stomach
My bodies unsteady
I have no luck

I have regret locked inside me
For a mistake I was making that I failed to see

I’m trapped in this safety net
You’ve wrapped around me
Hiding me from what comes my way

You only get one life
So live it well
One childhood, one mother
One story to tell