Because I Never Spoke A Word

Sweet withdrawal, blissful silence
Fake masks and happy lies
No one recognized how I
Stitched myself a smile

I should have smiled in that last picture
It's the last you'll ever see
Of me
Of the girl you thought I was

I spend my nights staring at the ceiling
Wishing I was different
But I will never be.
& So you're stuck with the imperfect me

I look in the mirror and scowl with disgust
What have I let myself become?
A ghost of cobwebs, sighs,
And a long since forgotten smile

Where is the little girl that used to be?
She's gone.
She slunk away when she saw my reflection
Ashamed of what I've become

Don't worry about me; I'll be just fine
I'll just hang out alone again
With not a friend
Not a one person who cares

Dear diary, I'll kill myself today.
Will anyone notice?
Anyone bother to forage into this fray
And find out what's wrong.

No.
Because I was invisible.
The one no one paid any mind to
Because I never spoke a word.