Holding him and loving you

You were there years ago
but I turned you away.
But now love songs
remind me of your face

So know I'm holding him
and loving you
and it's the hardest thing
I've ever had to do

I push him away
and can't look you in the eyes
I abandened you
even made you cry

You wanted me but
I didn't care
but now you're on my mind
and it doesn't seem fair

I don't want to leave him
he's done nothing wrong
he's perfect but I've
wanted you all along

Your moving on and I
can't tell you how I feel
this pain that
I feel inside, is so real

But I'll live with the pain
and all the lies too
becuase the pain is the only way
to stay connected to you.