Where are you when i needed you the most? my eyes are red and tried of this pain. you have the control to make me laugh but you use it to make me cry. You were are all the same i can never find a guy that doesn't make me cry. I thought you were the one but you torn me up inside know all i do is sit and cry. I lost my best friend in her own cold death. I have no one anymore Ive lost all i have ever had. Old habit's never die the just go away for awhile waiting to come back. The knife so close to my skin it makes me feel whole once again. it controls my feelings of love and pain makes me feel better when that blood drips to the cold floor. You thought i stopped this mess but i just lied about everything so i didn't hurt you as much. When you find out it will be to late hanging out won't be the same you will look at me in a strange way. You will blame yourself for the problems that you caused.It's not your fault i did it myself i just like the pain to be real because in away i can fight it then what i feel inside. I loved you but you have to much control over me and it hurts that you don't see.
