I'm sorry I couldn't be there,
when you were feeling down,
but you are always there,
to turn my frown upside down,
and I feel guilty,
for not helping you,
but our friendship to me is very VERY true.
I can't tell you how much I thank you,
and words cannot explain,
but I don't think I can make it,
with all this shit and pain.
I wish I could carve your name in my arm and die,
but if I do this,
late at night I know you'll cry,
thinking you haven't done enough,
but I want you to know this isn't your fault,
I guess my depression is just too tough.
And to the woman who brought me into this life,
I f u c k e n hate you,
I hope you die,
you put me down,
and made me cry.
And to most of the teachers,
who taught me in school,
I want you to know,
what you did was cruel,
you put me through so much shit,
you made me want to cut my wrist,
and let it bleed,
so late at you you'll sit and plead,
that you would've never done that,
why'd you have to turn into a brat,
with all the other kids to tease,
why did you have to pick me?
To all my friends,
who really care,
thanks for always being there,
even at the hardest times,
when I wanted to commit that crime...
I want you to know the truth...
if it weren't for you I would be that goof,
who went ahead and let it bleed,
who died from doing that evil deed.
So to all my friends,
I want you to know,
that I won't ever let you go,
and leave you here,
and watch you cry,
it wouldn't be your fault,
so please don't cry,
it would be them,
and that's no doubt.
So when I lay on my bed,
and you hear me cry,
I want you to know that I won't die,
at least not yet,
because without you,
that's something I would do.
To all my friends,
that have touched me,
I want you to know,
that here I'll be,
here to stay,
and at night you can pray.
That my life will change,
and it won't stay the same,
and I don't deserve this.
I never asked for all this abuse,
I'm sick of being that "train's" caboose,
I want to get out and reach my goal,
but without you...my heart is coal,
to be but into the fire wherever they like,
but now it's time for me to come out and fight!
