This is not me!

This isnt me,
looking out through teary eyes,
this is a broken soul,
the one you left behind,
this isnt me,
crying myself to sleep,
i lost myself when i lost you,
now all i do is weep,
this isnt me,
giving in to this pain,
slipping into this void of darkness,
failing again,
this isnt me,
as the blade draws blood,
as the knife cuts deep,
just as i hoped it would,
this cannot be me,
i used to be so strong,
but that was when my heart was whole,
before you stole it from me,
well this is me,
whether i like it or not,
however much i hate myself,
i am all ive got,
i hope youre happy now,
now youve ruined me,
as i sit here
drifting away,
giving in slowly...