I see myself...

Paranoia is suffocating me
Pulling the rope tighter and tighter around my neck
Unable to breathe I gasp in desperation
Unable to scream I collapse on the floor
Unable to see I cry myself to sleep
Unable to regain consciousness I get lost in the darkness

I see myself smiling
I'm crying on the inside
I see myself laughing
I'm dying on the inside

So many distant memories of how life used to be
Fading away into the back of my mind
New experiences blocking the old
Trauma's pushing past fairy tales

I see myself frowning
I'm hurting on the inside
I see myself crying
I'm dead on the the inside

I feel your grip tightening around my neck
The anger in your face rising
As your emotions are spat onto my face
You yell, your blind to my real problems

I see myself falling
I'm dead on the inside
I see myself still
I'm dead