Meth Dreams

I dreamt of you last night

You almost kissed me

you lips so close to mine

I could almost taste them

i could feel your heat

your breath on mine

and just before our lips entwined

it all went black

you disappeared

and i woke up

looked around

realized you weren't even home

and even if you were

I'd still be alone

I really would be

So I went back to sleep

And once again

you were there

in my dream

HIGH

and every time you came near

every time I'd reach out

to you

darkness would embrace me

Reality would awaken me

Knowing

once again

as always

I

was

utterly

alone.