Have You Ever?

Have you ever lived my life
Spent one day in my shoes
If you havent
then tell me how you judge me as you do

Have you ever had a friend who cuts
And you feel you cant help her because you do to
Never thinking she had the guts
To do the things you do

Have you ever felt so much regret
that you cant stop crying
Never knowing she felt the same way
Now you feel like dying

Have you ever had a friend try to kill herself
Downing 90 pills
Thinking shed sllep and wake
and it would be just a dream

Have you ever hid behind that smile
Only you knowing its not real
Hurting so badley that you cant speak
Leaving yourself for you to kill!

I have......
So now tell me how can you judge me as you do?