They say I shouldn\'t be sad at this point that theirs no way.
My homegirl says i feel as if on top of da world. But just because where talking,
doesn\'t mean Ima always have a smile on my face.
From one day to another, I can\'t erase all da memories he placed.
N the scars on my arm R proof that deep down inside things will never change.
When all your dreams R shattered N your world crumbles down.
You turn to da bottle N knife as your way out.
He crushed what little confidence I had.
Without knowing it he always made me cry,
and in the night all I could think about is how badly i wanted to die.
I grew up being afraid of the dark.
I remember when I was little I used to crawl into my parents bed
then in the middle of the night my daddy would carry me off to bed.
People say your mom is your Best Friend, N just by looking at your eyes,
she could see inside of them
as your true feelings reflect while shes saying its okay,
I\'m here to save the day.
Times have changed
Now me N my mom we don\'t have that \"bond\"
and because we where never that \"close\" the liquor replaced what I wanted the most.
Someone I can hold and change the way I felt.
I just wanted to now that someone would always be there.
Thats what alcohols for, to make you believe that the world....is yours....
