I Promise

I\'m sorry to you all,
I\'m sorry you\'ve had to watch me fall,
And im sorry ive upset you,
with all the stupid things that i do,
i promise with all my heart i try,
so please dont be sad, i dont want you to cry.

These things in which i do,
i do because hes able to get through,
I have tryed so many things,
To calm down,
not frown,
and be happy,
but hes always there,
feeding fear into my head,
i feel so low, thats why ive bled,
and thats why ive said,
that sometimes it might be better if im dead,
im sorry you have to here it like this,
but my life at home is anything but bliss

I promise im trying,
and im sorry that sometimes i say i feel like dying,
but writing this poem has made me see,
how much every single one of you mean to me,
So when i say i promise,
and im no longer going to cut,
I swear, promise, you listen here,
when im at home, living in fear,
I wont think of finding the knife,
or think in my head that i want to end my life,
for i will think of all of you,
billy hands especially,
and smile coz from now on i know ill be able to survive and get through.

*^* honestly, truly mean this *^*