Pregnant at Sixteen

They tell me I should be excited
"This is a happy time"
But theres so many other things
That happy hasn't crossed my mind

I'm nervous, confused
And living in regret
I'm not even ready
To believe this yet

I want my old life back
But it's too late
I made the decisions
I promised never to make

I had sex
Without protection
Now I can't even stand
To see my reflection

I never thought I'd get pregnant
While I was still in high school
I never thought I could ever
Feel like this big of a fool

I feel so stupid
For letting this happen to me
All because I was in love
And drunk at a party

I want to be a teenager still
And get drunk on the weekends
Run around doing stupid things
And getting into trouble with my friends

I want to get more
Than an hour of sleep at night
Instead of staying up thinking about
All of the things I didn't do right

I want to stop hiding
Because I'm afraid my mom will notice
I want not to have to worry about
How she will handle this

I don't want to have to think
About diapers and baby clothes
I don't want to have to worry
If the father knows

I want to run around
And go to the movies on Friday
But who will want to hang out with me
When I have a baby on the way

And after the baby comes
Whats going to happen to me
I'll be a senior in high school
And a child's mommy

I'll be up at night with the baby
Going to school during the day
Working in the afternoon....
I didn't plan my life this way

What about a babysitter
Who will watch my kid?
No one else should have to pay
For the things that I did

I feel so selfish
Thinking about what I'll miss
When this child didn't ask
For any of this

I want to be a good mom
And support my baby well
But I'm only sixteen...
This is going to be hell

But I know I'll love my baby
Because I already do
And I promise I'll do everything
That a mother is suppose to

I'll stop going to parties
And hanging out on the weekends
I'll get a good job
And love my child through thick and
thin

One day I'll go to college
And get a degree
So my child doesn't miss out
Because I got pregnant at sixteen