My Past, My Future

I remember when I was younger
Pretty as could be
I had so many friends
And things came so easily

Boyfriends came and went
Without breaking my heart in two
My parents were the coolest
And always said "I love you"

I never mouthed off to a teacher
And I'd giggle if I said a bad word
The day wasn't long enough
And I never got bored

Somewhere along the way
Things changed so fast
What was once my future
Is now in my past

I have piercings on my body
And stopped caring what people thought
I cry so much more now
And I party a lot

I don't have any real friends
The day has gotten longer it seems
And I've completely lost sight
Of all my hopes and dreams

My parents are divorced
They always say they hate me
I've tried so many drugs
And I'm only sixteen

I've had sex with a few guys
Stole some things from the store
Been suspended from school
And theres still so much more

I've been in love
And had my heart broken
I've carved into my body
Words that can't be spoken

I've even tried suicide
A time or two
Because things got rough
And I didn't know what to do

I've been addicted to a razor
My wrist are proof of that
I've even told someone a lie
Just to see how they'd react

I've been in many fights
And arrested once or twice
I've done a lot of things
That's messed up my life

I sit here and wonder
How things got to be this way
I remember being so innocent
Just like yesterday

I don't know how it happened
But it's not what I planned
I was going to be a lawyer
And find myself a good man

I was going to have a big house
And a happy family
With the guy of my dreams
To help support me

I didn't plan on getting pregnant
At sixteen years old
Without a job
And stories still to be told

I was going to be happy
And have so many friends
But whatever happened to me
Brought those dreams to an end

Somewhere along the way
Things changed so fast
What was once my future
Is now in my past