The relationship we Never had

Looking at my scars and all the tears i bled
And every hurtful memory of all the things you said.

I play them over so i can cry
But now my dreadful tears ran dry.

You made me lose everything you made me lose my heart
But you gave me back my ability to tear my world apart.

You made me lose my ability to think things are fine
I'm lashing out on everyone I'm totally losing my mind.

You took away everything to help motivate
You took away my happiness and filled me with self-hate.

I'm trying to forget how much i love you and all the things you did
Because i think its best if i keep these feelings hid.

Because when i sit and think how i spilled out my heart
Just for you to go and tear everything apart.

During every Little fight you'd through shit in my face
But theres something about you that wont let the love erase.

I don't know what it is I'm really not quite sure
Remember how you said that you didn't love me anymore?

How we aren't together and never will we be
But when you left i think you took apart of me.

Something id drown in way back when i was whole
Way back before you stole away my soul.

Way back before you stole away my tears
That i was able to fight back all these lonely years.

You stole away my heart and my ability to make it bleed
While I'm left here lonely to this unsuccessful life i lead.

Erupting from inside is the anger deep within
Its hurting so bad right now i cant keep it in.

I'm taking it out on people in school and home
All because you decided to leave me all alone.

Now i can feel my heart slowly crack
0h how i wish i could take it all back.

Now I'm filled with anger and regret
But this is something about you i never will forget:

The times we spent together both good and bad
The long lasting relationship that we never had.

The smile you put across my face
That slowly but surely fell out of place.

The twinkle in my eyes instead of my tears
The smiles and laughs over riding my fears.

The beat you put back in my heart
That slowly but surely drifted apart.

The love you gave that no one ever saw
But when you left you took it all.

Now I'm left here depressed and sad
Thinking about the relationship that we never had...