Why does everything have to be this way?
so hard.. so brutal..
why do you have to be so different.. why did you have to change?
why do i find your poems now? just as i was getting over your love for my best friend?
why cant i except the fact,
that your a lezbian just like the rest of em.
i\'ve heard your side of the story and then i\'ve heard hers..
they\'re both so very different.. that its hard to even see you\'re talking about the same thing.
did something hapen or did something not, cos you\'re making our as if she loved you, when she swore on my life that she didnt like you and that she would never go any further with you?
so confused right now.. so upset.. you\'re the only person that makes me wish i was dead.
and believe me, i feel bad, for not respecting your wishes.. for not understanding this
bi-shit\'.. but i would not care as much, if it was anyone else.. just not her.. not my best mate.
so as i pick this god damn blade up.. for the very last time.. know that it is you that made me..
i was clean for so long, that i threw out all my blades, then you lied to me yet again and so i had to find some new ones.
no person should ever have to feel what im feeling right now.. no person should have to see her best friend stumble.. but ey, shit happens right? people stuf up.. if only i knew that this was all gonna hapen.. then i wouldnt have even be friended you..
again, im sorry, but love hurts.. you should know.. you\'re only in love with my best mate.
