A Prisoner To My Self

I don't know why I keep punishing my self,
especially for something I have no control
of . But I continue to do It each day .

I blame myself for the way my life turned
out, and for my best friends who left or
pasted away .

I can't seem to break out of this shield I
placed around me when all hell broke loose
in my life . I place It there to protect
me, not imprison me . But now I'm stuck
with It until I die .

I'm fading away slowly, like an old dirty
book tucked away on a broken shelf .Its
all because of this invisible shield that
I'm a prisoner to myself .