It's Over

They Say your first true love
It never dies
And its true 'cause this still hurts inside
Why have I been thinking of you so much lately
I'm with him but you're filling my mind with all those memories
We were never together
I was never even good enough for you
I was just your toy
All you did was carry me above the world then watch me fall
One minute I was part of you
The next I was just another girl you hate
How can you do that
You made me so afraid
And I thought it was over
I thought I was through with the memories of you
But they're still there
I can't do this to him
He's my world now
I don't want it to come crumbling down
I don't want you in my mind
Why oh why did it have to be you
And why won't these thoughts leave
Why do I still want you to notice me when I never even see you anymore
Our time was just a blur to me
Yet the feelings were real
It was over a year ago
And every now and then I see you
When I do I want you to see me too
But you never even look in my direction
It wouldn't make a difference
It doesn't matter anymore
You're not going to destroy all I've built this year

*sorry it's really bad but I've just been thinking about this guy I used to like a over a year ago a lot lately.