Trying to learn, without you..

Mouth clenches tight
my body trys too hold it in
but i know I'm about too burst
here it comes down my face
bullets of pity,rage,self-respect, you
thoughts start to race though my mind.. getting faster and faster, each second with a bigger impact..
i don't know where to start,
i don't know what to do,
i need to leave my mind,
i need to leave my problems..
i need to inhale
but once i start to fall...
they seep their way back though,
stronger harder, bigger,..
i lose my mind again, with a even bigger problem..all i want to do it is turn too you, tell you i need you, tell you, i love you,..
but you are gone,..
and thats what hurts the most..
the absents of you...