Lost

I'm lost in the ways of everyone else
i stop and stare
i long to be them
no cares in the world
no scars to hide
no fake smile to keep up
i hate them momentarily
then thats when the thought comes to mind
maybe its my fault
maybe i asked for this
i need help
but don't know who to ask
i know you don't care but i love you
i need you to save me from falling
lower and lower
Ive lost all self respect
i lie on the floor motionless
thinking about those other people
what is it like to be normal
i long to be scar free
fear free
but it doesn't seem to be happening
i want out i want out
i hate this life