I cannot go on...

I'm good for nothing,
It's useless to live,
My life is worthless,
I'm unwanted wherever I go.

I do something wrong,
There's yelling at home,
I do something right,
It simply goes unnoticed.

I really don't know what to do,
As nothing before has ever worked.
Studying has no more use,
As I can not improve.

I don't understand,
I am lost in my mind,
I don't know what to do,
I don't know where to look.

I'm sorry to have to so this,
Sincerely, I am.
But with this I cannot live,
Not without understanding myself.

I cannot go on,
By living in darkness,
I cannot go on,
Without seeing the light.

This is the reason why I leave,
Today. Right now.
I leave you behind, to understand,
All the pain that was in my life.