I was never your little girl

I sit and think,
that life is great,
and everything is going so well,
but then a tear starts to roll,
as i think of you,
and the past i had with you,
how you treated me,
hurt me so bad,
left me waiting,
excited for you to come,
broke my heart,
left me disappointed,
i say i hate you,
and wish i didn't know you,
in my mind i think its true,
deep down in my heart it couldn't be,
but how do i forgive you,
when you have hurt me,
you have hurt me more then once,
torn me apart,
i look back to my childhood,
and look at all the photos,
if you say you have always loved me,
then tell me now,
why wasn't i ever your little girl?