Despair

I'm trying not to show it
Because I don't want them to know
That slowly I'm losing my composure
Each day a little more.
I'm supposed to set an example
Of how we should pursue our lives
But the more I take in,
The harder it becomes for me to try.
I try to continue smiling
Without letting anything get in my way
But it is slowly building up
Like a dark sewer on a rainy day.
I'm carrying a lifetime of pain on my shoulders
That gets heavier each day.
I struggle to carry the load
But it only causes me more pain.
I feel like a small balloon
That can only take in so much air.
One day I will explode
Because its hard to cope a lifetime of despair.