Killing Herself

She's sitting in the kitchen
watching the tap leak
silence engulfs the house
she does not speak.

She's waiting for his car
to pull up in the driveway
she wants to give him her surprize
on this clear perfect day.

It feels as though
she's been waiting forever
and she falls asleep at the kitchen table, on this day with beautiful weather.

Finally theres a knock at her door
and she awakes to hear it open
a police officer without his hat
she hears his words that were not yet spoken.

"Miss, I'm sorry you have to hear this from me, but your husbund is dead, his soul has been set free."

The young wipes away her single tear, and acts as though she does not hear.

"Miss, miss? Will you be well?"
but the girl just sits there,
in silent spell.

"If you need anything, anything at all, you just feel free to give me a call."

With this last statement the policeman leaves, and the girl starts crying on her knees,

She doesn't know exactly what to do, thinking of everything the two of them had been through.

After a long while she decides
to climb into bed, and within her dreams, thoughts of her husbund fill her head.

She awakes at dawn
and sits down to think
writing a letter with the blackest ink.

He was my heart,
he was my soul
he was the missing piece
to my hearts empty hole.

He made me laugh
even when I was mad
and he tickled me the times
when I felt so sad.

I was the bird, and he was the bull
together we overcame, lifes ever obstacle.

The times I cried, he would weep
he'd sing me a song, when I couldn't fall asleep.

But now he is dead
and I'm still alive
and now I have no one
to wipe away my cries.

One suicide attempt
to end it all
but she failed to finish
as the stars beckoned call.

Two suicides attempts gone wrong
no longer singing their wedding song.

four Suicide attempts to fail
as shes sitting all alone to ail.

Five suicide attempts complete
as blood is leaking down to her feet.

And now they take her to the phycotic ward, as she tries to strangle herself with the telephone cord.

And now shes crying all alone
wishing to smell his sweet cologne.

Her heart is cracked
and it can't stop bleeding
its he whom shes still needing.

She tries again to kill herself
but shes in good shape, in good health.

She then gets better and they release her home, at night she still cries all alone.

She's sitting in the kitchen
watching the tap leak
silence engulfs the house
and she does not speak.