What I want for Christmas

I threw my Christmas list away this year
Threw it in the fire
Sat there with feiry in my eyes
And watched the paper burn
I'm tired of lies being told
Although they may not be lies at all
But I'm just so tired
Of people saying sweet words to me
That is said by no one else
How do I know if they are for real?

I walk around with a smile
Thats my favorite way to communicate
I'll do that anytime day or night
But people do not ask me why I smile
They do not ask me if I'm really happy
They don't know that I cry
I cry tears of sadness
For a family I know
For some lives I know
Who are in desperate need

Sometimes I wonder about my own family
I worry about our needs
Money is needed everywhere
My dreams can not be met
My hope is going down
I do not know where to turn
So I turn to my pillow
It always lets me cry
Does not look at me weird when I pray

Sometimes I just ask God
What do my eyes need to be opened to?
Am I looking in the wrong direction for something?
Is someone in my life that can help me?
Is there someone in my life I need to help?

So I say I don't want a Christmas this year
I don't want no gifts or money
What I want for Christmas this year
Is a confirmation
A confirmation that everything will be alright
I want someone to tell me that
Only if they are positive
And if by any chance they are unsure
I wish for them to say nothing

What I want for CHristmas this year
Is for my family's needs to come to an end
My dreams to be meant
And the biggest change
In the hearts of the people in this world...........