Your Goodbye, My Feelings

* this is for my friend that died a year ago today, i still miss them madly because they were my best friend like a brother too me.*

* their goodbye*
I'm sorry that I'm leaving this way
I'm sorry that i couldn't hold on
I'm sorry I've left with doors closed
Mom and dad I'm sorry
Sister and brother I'm sorry I'm gone
Friends I'm sorry I never said
Hannah I'm sorry the most to you
You stood by me
Tried to pull me threw
You were the only one that saw the pain
You're the one i opened my heart to
But I'm sorry for the things i did not share with you
Please no one cry when I'm gone
Mom and dad I'm still here in your hearts
Sister and brother I'm still here watching over you and protecting you like before
Friends Please don't fear my leaving
Hannah please don't shed a tear
Hannah please don't leave to join me
You were the one who cared
Please no one cry
Please no one leave
For i am sorry i could not hold on
I LOVE YOU ALL
X X X X X

* my letter of my feelings*
That night i got the call
I remember so well
Your mom rang
"Hannah i have some bad news"
I was worried from the moment she said that
" you may want to sit down this is going to hurt"
The floor is where i sat phone to ear waiting for the news
"he's left us, he's died."
When them words were said
I dropped the phone
My heart ripped to shreds
The pain i felt when i heard you had gone
I never thought this day would come
I thought you were getting better
You stopped cutting, you stopped the drugs the drinking
I saw the pain in your eyes
I stopped you falling well as i thought
That night
I wanted to leave
Be with you
Like we said
Friends Forever
That night
I took my pills, I overdosed on drugs, I drunk more than i ever had
I slit my wrists
I wrote my goodbye
But something saved me
I swear it was you
You came and said stop and stay with your life go and find away to live
Your parents Heartbroken
Your brother and sister cutting
Your friends crying
Me I'm hiding
Helping everyone else who's suffering
They think I'm being strong
I'm crying and dying inside really
But i won't let them see
I'll never leave you
I'll stay here live on
I'm sorry i know you'd hate to see my cry my life away
I do cry though
I cry alone at night
Thinking how you opened your heart
But things you did hide
How i could of helped you more
I'll never forget
I'll look after your sister and brother like you did
I'll help your parents get threw this
I'll stand by your friends keeping them alive
You'll never be replaced
You're always be in my heart
Friends forever i guess
Love you
Miss you